Giving Massage and Thinking

I am taking a class, the amazing human, Jessica Dore teaching/leading the class writes a thoughtful, insightful newsletter each week, Offerings. In her newsletter last week (maybe more than that now), a question she asked herself in reflection of past years and in the coming of a new year was; “What would be wonderful?”

This question stopped me in my tracks. My mouth agape, my eyes wide, talking aloud to no one, “I can ask that?!”. How did I get this far in my life and never ask this question to myself.

I have spent so, so much time reflecting on my life, past time, planning future time not yet even in existence. Focusing on progressing, evaluating, planning, reassessing. What can I do better? How can I be better? How can I be x,y,z? How can I be a better person to others? The list of questions is endless AND slightly brain numbing. BUT, in all of my years I have not once, not one time asked myself, what would be wonderful?

I had only silence initially when I tried to answer this question. Then, I came up with a bunch of responses which were really just different versions of my previous self evaluations, seeming more like a to do list than anything genuinely radiant and gloriously wonderful.

I am still digging around in my chest for the answers which light up my center. This question has me thinking and exploring new possibilities which are joyous and nurturing, not benchmarks or self improvements. One very loud answer I finally heard was MAKE ART. Not for anyone or any reason, but because lately I feel a need, deep in my bones to create.

Maybe you have never asked yourself, or, like me, did not know you could ask. So, from Jessica, to me, to you, I share the question, What would be wonderful?

Awesomely and Awkwardly,

xo Catie

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